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Monday, February 12, 2007,2:12 PM
As I look out of the window in the train, past vast expanses of grass, past bland white houses, past dry, barren lands, into the distant blue horizon; I wonder why I don't write anymore.
There's this strange kind of lethargy that has filled me, rendering me incapacitated to write anymore. I write for my projects. I write for other trivialities. But, I've stopped writing for myself.
I tear my gaze away from the window and look about me. My thoughts begin meandering as usual. There's a middle - aged man reclining on the berth opposite mine. An unusually long mustache and seven days' stubble have given him a distinctly loutish appearance.
I stifle a yawn.
A child is bawling somewhere in the distance.
I turn towards the window again... Seeing but not registering. Hearing but not listening.
My thoughts turn towards writing, again, and I decide to do something definite about it, maybe, write more often. I rest my head against the window pane warmed by the gentle February sun. It is a boring journey, indeed.
I fidget wit the catch that fastens the berth and think..
"The inquietude is killing..
The ennui, devastating.. "
I nod my head in silent approval. Maybe I identify with what he said.
The train continues chugging through green meadows and past modest huts.
I fall asleep noiselessly.
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